talk about hypocrisy

To be opinionated is one thing but to be so rigid about your opinion that you would not even consider the possibility of the opposing argument being even  remotely justified is narrow minded stupidity of the highest order. This is my opinion and I refuse to budge from it come what may!!!!!

Small town girl

My father was in the Army( he is now retired and is a commercial pilot) so most of my childhood i spent moving from one town to another .I have grown up small army stations like Leimakhong ( Manipur), Dhrangdhra in Gujrat, Devlali in Maharashtra...I mean, Ambala Cantt. was my idea of a big city till I came to Delhi.
So when I came to Delhi after two years in a boarding school, I was apprehensive, scared and at the same time I was not interested. For the first time in my life I did not want to make new friends.
Although I decided to close myself this time was because the latest separation had been way too painful,  a small part of me knew that i was a misfit here. I was a small town girl and this is a big city. This was Delhi.

I remember I had come to Delhi once in class four to meet my  relatives  and while I was traveling in an auto my eyes started to water because there was too much smoke. From places where the whole town happened know each other to a place where you tend to not know your neighbor, the change was drastic and disconcerting.
Two years down the lane, I did make friends, I did settle down.
It took me longer than ever before but as always I ended up just fine.
But here's the  real thing. I studied two years in    DPS, by the time I passed out, I walked the walk and talked the talk .I was fine, but I was still a small town girl . I still hated the crowded markets, malls and south ex did not excite me. And I hated sarojni nagar and dilli haat ( although i must have been there only twice in the two years of school) because the crowd freaked me out. I hated that everybody lived so far from each other, I hated that I had to live in flats and was happy in school and miserable before and after it. Even when I was alright, I wished that I could see the stars at night  like i used to in Sabathu , after it had rained, because that's one of the privileges big city people don't get. The pleasure of simplicity.
When I started applying for colleges, I was at the rock bottom. When I came To Kamala Nehru College,Delhi university.I could not have been worse.
This is where it all starts for me. I  LOVE this city. Mostly Thanks to LAKSHYA ( the theater society  that i am a part of) and also thanks to my new friends, But I have been around the city, shopped for L.B.D.s for Rs 25.. traveled from Okhla to Indraprastha in a bus at 7 pm, Sarojni is an everyday affair, Dilli Haat is my fav., i love the people, the way the are, the slang, the code of conduct, I love the ;lechy men  who stare at you on the road, i love the flyovers the green and red DTC a.d LOVE the metro, i love India gate, I LOVE C.P., I LOVE  Dwarka with the redis that have New York style head bands all for 10 bucks, the rikshawalahs, te hookas and the thekas.
The realization of my love for this city fell upon me when I was at CP, I had just got a pair of jeans stitched at Mohan Singh Palace and I was waiting for DTC 500 so that I could go back to college. I had to wait for quite some time, I had to then go to Jantar Mantar and take a 544 instead. That's when I realised that I loved this city, because it gave me the one thing that  I craved  for the most all my life: FREEDOM. Its true that every-time I go to a new place I do end up loving it. but this one is different, I don't just lov ethis place because ii have settled down I love it because i have logical reason to. Like there are all kinda of people here, from those who love metal to those who love Dylan to those who love both to those who love both. This city has got a chat ki dukaan every 500 meters . This city have got the most horrible auto wallas but also the most chatty and helpful ones. This city has culture.

I am a small town girl and live very happily in a big city

Whos god? which GOd what god???

The concepts of atheist and agnostic are pretty blurred in my head. I guess that agnostics are the people who have an 'i don't know' attitude towards god or they believe in something but they don't know what that is. Yeah the concepts of god, religion and all are pretty complicated. Those who believe just do , those who try to rationalise just end up being confused or repulsive. I think that it is ok to be any of the above but here's what i believe. I believe  that the truth is only what a person believes to be true.Gods existence for a person is as lucid as strong is his faith. This faith may not necessarily be driven by some sort of logical understanding. Its just what someones believes in: you have to respect that.It is amazing what faith could dp- this statement is highly subjective- but believing in something with all your heart, it does make a difference, good or bad? It depends.


I do not affiliate myself to any religion. It may be partly due to my lack of knowledge or understanding but it is mainly because I love and repel all religious pracctices in a way. Or maybe i am not just strong enough to have such faith.. whattever there ason may be..u really dont want to get to all that ull just end uo really comfused.
Anyways, i admire and respect the faith certain kind of people have in respective gods, it must take some good element of character to be so true to what you believe in. However i do have a problem when people around me acct hypocritical and myopic. Yeah!we are a religiously Myopic society. We are not ready to look beyond what we have chosen to be our faith. That as i learned only recently, goes not only for the believers but also for the confused non beleivers , the rationalists , all of them are trying so hard to justify or propagate their own stand that they do not  realize that you could stick to your side without putting the other side down. Even the agnosts try putting the beleivers downt , mostly unconsciously by being unsessitive to their religious beleives.
FOOTNOTE: if none of this make any sense to you stop reading now cz its going to get worse

SHOULD WE DO IT ON OUR OWN???

I saw the news about the student of the National Institute of Design who slashed a knife across defamed D.G.P.Rathore , the guy who raped a minor resulting in her killing herself and yet he managed to smile shamelessly as he walked out of the courtroom after being convicted . I am dead sure that i am not the only one who did not resent what happened. The times of india report said that the boy is being treated for mental illness. However this incident has aroused some very valid questions in my head. 
To what limit do we sit back and watch the failure of our legal system.ti Till when do we not react to all the Manu Sharmas on parole? IS it time we do a Rang De Basanti  and take matters into our own hands??Yeah well that would sound really filmi but its a thought. There are so many well connected criminals out there who  have a leeway with the law. That is just NOT FAIR!!!
I ,for one ,feel very unsafe to be guaranteed my rights by a legal system which has sold itself out to the rich and the powerful.
Todays newspaper also brought that the court has ordered that all the cases regarding the 1984 riots are to be wrappd up by the next six months.. YEAh !! as iff!!
Why not wait another 25 years when the concerned ministers and bureaucrats anr long dead and gone, then we could just close the files and pretend nothing happened..
Here's a simple thought : JUSTICE DELAYED, IS JUSTICE DENIED.

And justice twisted to favor the rich and the powerful is a freakin disgrace. So what do i do sitting at home penning down my thoughts.. The question is what can be done? is it unfair for a common man to pik up a gun and shoot these incurable nuisances out?? We are a country where a state govt. spentraround two and a half lakh rupess per day on a man who marched into our country with a gun and shot down 200 innocent people.
 i don't know of any way out of this but i guess throwing shoes and scratching off of faces is a good thing.. call me crazy!! :) 

is parental authority the ultimate??

intoduction

i used to be a natural at writing .... i always wrote brilliant articles and all that in class.Dude see how the things have changed. I stopped writing during my 11th and 12th.. for reasons that go deeper than: you know. science. busy..but all said and done.. i have realise that i now find it extremely difficult to write.. or say write well!!! MOst of the times i fail to retain my thoughts in my head long enough to put them down.. weird !! i noe.. hehehe


but i was told today by a very smart person that all writing is bad writing...so theres nothing to worry right??
this blog may not be the most literary or resourcefull, in fact there will be spelling and grammatical mistakes.. so forgive me ..
but read on..:)